At two weeks I was still numb. I thought about my son several times per hour, instead of several times per day like I do now. The first year is difficult because everything will be the first time something happens without your friend - holidays, birthdays, visits to familiar locations, etc. I still get sad when I hear songs that were popular from the time when my son took his life. "We are Young" by fun is particularly difficult to hear.
Confused and overwhelmed with grief, and alway will continue to wonder..why didn,t you call me! Always acted like things were so great! UGH!!! Why!!
I'm so sorry for your loss there really isn't getting around the reminders unfortunately feel accordingly to what triggers you are having unfourtanatley we have to live without our loved one although in a heart beat I would change it if I could. In the beggining I took around his jacket in my bag eventually I left it ho!e but don't intend on getting rid of it I keep his favorite pillow near me but there is an aspect if me knows these things won't bring me the comfort he gave me I'm struggling everyday if you find something of significance to you even if its everything keep it around
Stay strong your friend who is always remembering richard