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I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Sat Dec 11, 2010 9:57 am

23 Nov 2010.

I sometimes closed my eyes i think when i open my eyes, everything will back to normal.
This is just a bad dream.
I miss her. I love her.
I cannot focus on my work.
i feel weak.
i am 32 male. i cry sometimes in bus, when smoking, i so miss her.

She is 62. I love her so much.. it just happen too fast.
so much i want to tell her..
I LOVE MY MUM! SEE YOU IN HEAVEN WHEN MY TIME HAS COME.
GOD, Please show your loves to all.
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby Matnet4 » Sat Dec 11, 2010 12:49 pm

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Mum.....I hope this forum will be a place of support and
comfort for you, as it has been for so many of us.
Nancy, mother of Mark, 21 Left us on 2/1/09
aunt of Elysia, 22 Left us on 1/16/10
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Sun Dec 12, 2010 10:50 am

Thank. It's so unreal... My life was changed.. My wife pregnant and will be due next July. The day before, I told my mum she going to be a grandma soon... I cried when I think of her. Tonight I cried again... I told my wife I missed my mum so much... Then I went to smoke again.. When I look out the sky I saw the star again.
There are two star.. I felt better as I told my self it mum with God.

I not sure how to comfort those people that going through the same thing. But I want to said is you are not alone
Those that have msn can add me. At least we dealt with the same pain
I not sure if time can heal a bit since it just 3weeks for me, but I will preserve.
I love you mum n miss u so much. I will take care of papa and sisters.

Amen.
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby Blossom » Sun Dec 12, 2010 7:22 pm

Sam, I am very sorry that your mother died - I can hear your pain.

Of course you will take care of your papa and sisters....please let them and others take care of you too.
Sleep is very important for you - some of us here only slept a few hours each night in the weeks after we lost our loved ones and this makes the daylight hours so much harder to get through....on top of this is the racing thoughts, the wild swinging feelings and sometimes a numbness, no thoughts or feelings...our bodies and minds are giving us a little rest to help survive the trauma of our loss. Please take every opportunity to rest, to sleep and keep posting and sharing this journey - we are here to listen and to help each other.
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Sun Dec 12, 2010 9:08 pm

thank Blossom.

Just now i took a nap, i dreamt i am crying and crying. i felt the pain.I felt someone touching my eyes like taking away my tear.
Then i woke up.

For me, sleeping is now sort of comfort and waking up was pain.

Is it normal I thought as time pass I will feel better but each day passes I felt much worst?
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Mon Dec 13, 2010 5:57 pm

I woke up crying today. Why this week seem so hard for me. I took leave from work again.

I though I am strong, but why I feel so weak. I feel so lonely. I feel so guilty useless. There so much I want to share with my mum. Her grandson, my new house etc. I so miss her.
I feel so tired. We been living together for the past 32 years. I have a void in me and a room full of pain. Life seem to come to a stop for me. I don't care about my job. I just want to be with my mum.
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby ScottsMom » Mon Dec 13, 2010 8:08 pm

sam

I have read every post you've made around the forum and I just never have words for you. Bless your heart, I can hear the longing in you words and it breaks my heart you miss your mum so.

Sweet sam, I am thinking of you
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Tue Dec 14, 2010 7:08 pm

With tears i sleep
With tears i awake
The flush of memories
replaying again and again
I pray everyday
While you smiling above me
Every single day i miss you
Hoping the day come when i see your face again
I long for your hugs,
I long for your smell
i miss your voice above all

The day will come,
when i meet you face to face
i will hugs you with my love
and i will tell you i love you
there will be no tear from that day
and no answer i want to know
For i am with you
Just like the old good days.

- For my mum
15.12.2010
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Tue Dec 14, 2010 10:18 pm

A PRAYER FOR THE PERSON
WITH EMOTIONAL PAIN
O Lord,

At this time of emotional pain in my life, help me to remember that You became man to grant us a perspective on the suffering of this world. You, too, were moved by intense feelings, and were at times angry, near despair and filled with doubt. You, above all, suffered at the hands of others and were misunderstood by many. Yet, You listened, always with rapt attention, to others in pain, offering them comfort and acceptance.
Teach me now to find new faith in You, in myself,helpers, and in my fellow man. I ask Your grace and courage that I might embrace my life and experiences as my own, good and bad, and begin my life anew today. Allow me that strength to communicate about my inner experience so that others, working through Your hand, may understand and accept me, and I may find Your peace within myself.

Amen.
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Re: I miss my mum so much

Postby samwong » Wed Dec 15, 2010 8:35 am

Image

i miss you mum.

You so pretty.
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