coming up on 5 months

[suepred]

I would like to thank everyone who responded to my first post. It is wonderful to have this new outlet. I am getting ready to prepare our taxes for 2011 and I am trying to take amedical deduction so I do not look forward to the stroll down memory lane of all the doctors visits all the drugs and all the pain my husband suffered with no help or solution. I n a way I don't want to do this but I kind of feel it brings some purpose to all Mikey's pain. And I'm sure he would want me to get every pennie I can back from the government to help me. I have also considered a law suit involving some real questionable medical care but I don't want to come across as some vengful shrew looking to right her husbands suicide. I guess what matteres most is what I want and what Mikey would have wanted me to do. Once he told me to sue a hopital if anything ever happened to him because he felt they harmed him with the combo of perscription drugs they gave him. I'll never know . Any thoughts? suepred.

[Bereaved1]

suepred, I have a lot of thoughts about how to change the World. There are a lot of problems to address that are killing people. First, I suggest you write it all out. Doing your taxes will help you objectify why & how your poor husband was suffering so much. The decision of what to do with your story will emerge. Make and keep copies of everything.

My own personal trauma is being fired with no cause, no explanation and no due process because I was hired in an at-will job of Adjunct Lecturer. I suspect that Jacob might have been fired just before he suicided.

I had no idea what "working at will" meant or how cruelly it would be used against me to have the school's receptionist call my students and cancel my last class with them without letting me know. It turns out that in New York State - bullying and abuse are legal as long as it is not against a racial, gender, or age protected group. So, what is legal is not necessarily what is moral anymore. - or even what is rational.

I find that trying to make a difference eases my pain somewhat, some of the time....Keep going. (((Hugs)))

[suepred]

Thanxs for the response Bereaved1 you gave me more to think about. Just the use of this forum has changed my life by writing and given me new courage. Doing the taxprep was theraputic in some odd way, and I do praise God that I have kept such good records. It made it easier. What happened to you at work was so unfair and cruel at our lowest point it seems we get kicked by the un-understanding but that is why there is karma and I believe a new avenue will be shown to you that will be more fullfilling to you. God bless us in our journeys. suepred

[Bereaved1]

Thank you suepred. There are so many things to fix, I don't know where to start. I'm walking around with a broken off front tooth that is now starting to feel like a status symbol of Dentistry in America because I can't get the help I need with the money I have. I found http://dentistryfromtheheart.org/and will probably host my own event when/if I can find a dentist in NYC who would do it. I'm just back from NYU Dental Clinic where they refused to refund my $100 that I had to pay to be seen their Emergency Department. They did nothing for me in there. I brought my own XRay that a Dentist shot and I paid for. I was a Dental Hygienist in my first profession so I knew what had to be done and only needed a temporary replacement tooth so I could go on job interviews so I can make the money to be able to pay for a Root Canal and Permanent Crown or an Implant. As soon as you are a little older or have a money problem you are completely shot down into another socio-economic category. It's absurd. Let's keep going..God Bless you.