Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

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Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby Karyl » Sat Nov 06, 2010 2:52 pm

When Someone is Too Bruised to be Touched

Fr. Ron Rolheiser July 7, 2002

A few days ago, I was asked to visit a family who had, just that day, lost their 19 year-old son to suicide.

There isn't much one can offer by way of consolation, even faith consolation, at a moment like this, when everyone is in shock and the pain is so raw. Few things can so devastate us as the suicide of a loved one, especially of one's own child.

There is the horrific shock of losing a loved one so suddenly which, just of
itself, can bring us to our knees; but, with suicide, there are other
soul-wrenching feelings too, confusion, guilt, second-guessing, religious
anxiety.

Where did we fail this person?
What might we still have done?
What should we have noticed?
What is this person's state with God?

What needs to be said about all of this:

First of all, that suicide is a disease and the most misunderstood of all
sicknesses. It takes a person out of life against his or her will, the
emotional equivalent of cancer, a stroke, or a heart attack.

Second, we, those left behind, need not spend undue energy second-guessing as to how we might have failed that person, what we should have noticed, and what we might still have done to prevent the suicide.

Suicide is an illness and, as with any sickness, we can love someone and
still not be able to save that person from death.

God loved this person too and, like us, could not, this side of eternity, do
anything either.

Finally, we shouldn't worry too much about how God meets this person on the other side. God's love, unlike ours, can go through locked doors and touch what will not allow itself to be touched by us.

Is this making light of suicide? Hardly.

Anyone who has ever dealt with either the victim of a suicide before his or
her death or with those grieving that death afterwards knows that it is
impossible to make light of it.

There is no hell and there is no pain like the one suicide inflicts. Nobody
who is healthy wants to die and nobody who is healthy wants to burden his or her loved ones with this kind of pain.

And that's the point: This is only done when someone isn't healthy.

The fact that medication can often prevent suicide should tell us something. Suicide is an illness not a sin.

Nobody just calmly decides to commit suicide and burden his or her loved ones with that death any more than anyone calmly decides to die of cancer and cause pain.

The victim of suicide (in all but rare cases) is a trapped person, caught up
in a fiery, private chaos that has its roots both in his or her emotions and
in his or her bio-chemistry.

Suicide is a desperate attempt to end unendurable pain, akin to one throwing oneself through a window because one's clothing is on fire.

Many of us have known victims of suicide and we know too that in almost every case that person was not full of ego, pride, haughtiness, and the desire to hurt someone.

Generally it's the opposite.

The victim has cancerous problems precisely because he or she is wounded, raw, and too-bruised to have the necessary resiliency needed to deal with life.

Those of us who have lost loved ones to suicide know that the problem is not one of strength but of weakness, the person is too-bruised to be touched.

I remember a comment I over-heard at a funeral for a suicide victim.

The priest had preached badly, hinting that this suicide was somehow the
man's own fault and that suicide was always the ultimate act of despair.

At the reception afterwards a neighbour of the victim expressed his displeasure at the priest's homily: "There are a lot of people in this world
Who should kill themselves," he lamented bitterly, "but those kind never do!


This man is the last person who should have killed himself because he was one of the most sensitive people I've ever met!"

A book could be written on that statement. Too often it is precisely the meek who seem to lose the battle, at least in this world.

Finally, I submit that we shouldn't worry too much about how God meets our loved ones who have fallen victim to suicide. God, as Jesus assures us, has a special affection for those of us who are too-bruised and wounded to be touched.

Jesus assures us too that God's love can go through locked doors and into
broken places and free up what's paralyzed and help that which can no longer help itself.

God is not blocked when we are. God can reach through.

And so our loved ones who have fallen victim to suicide are now inside of
God's embrace, enjoying a freedom they could never quite enjoy here and being healed through a touch that they could never quite accept from us.
~~~~~~~~~
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby kansley » Sat Nov 06, 2010 6:24 pm

Thank you for reposting this on the new board....I so appreciated it when I read it the first time and have directed many others to this man of God, for healing and understanding. Two years into this journey, I find that many of the survivors are also Too bruised to be touched, to wounded to be healed, to sorrowful to be comforted. I am thankful that we ho have been called to travel this difficult road have a place to come and know that others understand our tenderness, our brusing , our struggles. While it does not make it go away, it makes it easier to endure knowing that there are those out there who will listen and not judge, will understand and not grow weary of our sorrow, and will be there when we need someone to listen. May we all find that place of healing and peace, and may we one day find ourselves in God's embrace.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby BigSister1952 » Sat Nov 06, 2010 7:15 pm

Two years into this journey, I find that many of the survivors are also Too bruised to be touched, to wounded to be healed, to sorrowful to be comforted. I am thankful that we ho have been called to travel this difficult road have a place to come and know that others understand our tenderness, our brusing , our struggles.

Yes Kathie... here too, after more than four years, I still often feel too bruised, wounded and sorrowful.. am so very thankful for this forum and for people who understand.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby Matnet4 » Sat Nov 06, 2010 7:38 pm

I agree too Kathie-we survivors are also "too bruised to be touched" many times.
And I thank you too Karyl, for posting this here.....it's one of the best things I've read about
suicide, ever.
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aunt of Elysia, 22 Left us on 1/16/10
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby samwong » Tue Jan 25, 2011 3:16 am

thank for this post. it meant so much to me.
I LOVE MY MUM! SEE YOU IN HEAVEN WHEN MY TIME HAS COME.
GOD, Please show your loves to all.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby tamh1234 » Sat Apr 23, 2011 9:30 pm

I also want to thank you for this posting. It touched and helped to make some sense of the topic of suicide and sin. I copied it and sent it to my brother's wife. I know it will help her too. Thank you.
I love you, little brother, and miss you more than words could ever say.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby cksmiles31 » Mon Aug 29, 2011 1:15 am

I am so so grateful for this post. I came across it a couple months ago and copied to my computer. Seeing it again tonight brings a special warmth.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby tamh1234 » Wed Aug 31, 2011 9:42 pm

I just now read this again and it touched me, made more sense to me, and really helped me more now...a year after my brother passed away...then it did when I read it the first time a few months back. I'm in a different place now then I was then. I am further down the road and have finally made peace with the anger I had toward my brother for abandoning me. I am so glad that I came across this again. This is a wonderful and powerful message. Thanks again.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby vivien » Sun Oct 30, 2011 7:53 pm

Thank you for posting that .It has helped me today.
Someone has said to me ...
' Your son did'nt want to die,he just wanted the pain to stop'
My son was in such turmoil he did'nt which way to go forward.
At my sons funeral,I had the song Precious Lord,Take my hand...by Elvis.
Because I believe that my son was trying to reach out to God.
Reading your post ,I now believe that God did reach out to my son.
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Re: Too Bruised to Be Touched: God Embraces Them

Postby grankate » Wed Dec 12, 2012 10:20 am

I liked this. Thank you for sharing. It rings true for my son, Loren.

Loren's mom, Karen
born: 3/27/66 passed:11/5/2011
always loved always remembered
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