Ive become the ''runner''

[Blossom]

Ugh, I know....boy oh boy, circles it is! So well said! Maybe, it has to be circles...I've never read of any survivor experience here or elsewhere that speaks of a clear single trajectory of healing. It's a day by day proposition, it is, it is.

[cali]

I've always thought of life as a spiral, sometimes I am the whole tornado, if thats what it happens to be that moment, or if I'm lucky I can be a green and growing vine, or the idea of a dancer mid-spin. Most times I'm walking or falling down or struggling up the path of it. To think I ever skipped when I was young.
The "how are you question"
I don't know how to respond to that question. Maybe "I'm holding my own." Most people really don't want to know, and I don't want the questions that they would ask. I don't know if there's an Oz equivalent, or if it's used there.
The sad truth is I usually tell people whatever they want to hear, because I don't want to talk about it right now..

[briansfolks]

[quote="Crystl"]thanks bereaved, blossom, cali.
I would like to run into you anywhere for we understand each other totally
Blossom I feel for you in the supermarket...I had someone come up to me acting concerned and asking questions about my sons death
the next time I saw her she ran and didn't speak...in hindsight I realized she just wanted all the info about his death so she could spread the word
I won't fall for that again...I hope!

cali I will try your suggestion too " Excuse me, I have to go." and run like hell.
don't know who to trust anymore!!
((HUGS))[/quote In my opinion many people that came initially after the death of our son came to be nosy. They knew us well enough that they could come over then immediately get on that phone or go to work the next day with the scoop! Haven't heard from many of them since. Human nature I guess. Any way I would rathr they hear it from us then to hear rumors that were false. Best to be upfront with people! How many of you that have Facebook received friend requests? HMMM?

[Crystl]

youre right briansfolks...prob best if they hear the 'true' story from us than some made up rumor..
especially when there was a girl involved in that last 'push' over th edge...i wanted people to know th truth about what she did to my son.

no facebook requests for me...in fact i deleted most of the so called friends (and relatives too) after about 6 months who hadn't bothered to speak to me at all let alone ask how i was
people never cease to amaze me even after 2half years of this journey..you'd think i wouldve learnt not to be so trusting by now
(((hugs)))